ღ::7-permata nilam::ღ

Hello,

This is something that I really want to say to this person...Yeah, since the day I realized that there's something awkward, something suspicious and something insane lingered around me, I couldn't stop myself to be that cold, to be that cruel to you, yeah...It's like you just going to stand there, watch me burn and hear me cry...Well, honestly, that's alright because I like the way it hurts, I love the way you lie...
I really can't tell you what it really was, I can only tell you what it felt like..and, the truth is, it felt like there's a steel knife in my windpipe...I couldn't breath but I forced myself to fight the pain...Yeah..but, no worries...I've erased every pain and tears that now, I can breath with ease...yay! Whatever it is, thanks for the memories, they made me learn, yeah, a lot - in a rough way... :)
I'm not telling that it's your fault, 100%, yeah, it's undeniable that I was the co-culprit who help you to crash everything...yeah..so, here, I just want to say sorry for my every words that hit you, that blamed you and that treated you like you are the most wanted criminal ever in the world...That's all, thank you :)

ღ::6-do i know you?::ღ

Dear Mr.With No Name, The whisper of your sweet insanity decays the thin lining of patience in me...Right now, while my heart are so busy formulating the denials of your effect on me, I'm thinking of casting an evil spell on you so that you'll disappear forever...Yeah, you are a stranger, so..."What do I care?"

ღ::5-Miss(d)(r)(e)(a)(m)::ღ

I am not so sure from where this dream came however, it has successfully cherished my last night sleep..(maybe because I miss him so much!)I dreamt of meeting my sweetheart in Perak...& guess what, in that dream, I walked slowly into his university's compound, lying to the guards there by saying I'm an UITM student.This is the dialogue :

Guard : Where's your matrix card?

Blissfulheart : I left it in my room, erm, could you please wait for a minute...I've asked my roomate to get it for me..(it's actually a trick to delay the time as my sweetheart messaged me saying that he's on his way to pick me up)

Suddenly, guess what, IT'S RAINING!!hehehe and..

the guard said: Ha, don't have to wait here, just go!but don't do it again!

YAY!

What can I say!

However, it surprised me to see him driving this car - a black MyVi...question like: "Where's his beloved red kancil?" forced my mind to think of the answer...ahh..whatever car it was, I can remember that, I am so happy to see him...we went out and spent most of the time together :)

so, Miss (D)(r)(e)(a)(m)..thanks for drawing a smile on my face when I woke up on that day...i'm so happy to be able to meet my sweetheart and spend most of the time with him...yeah, even though it's just a dream, i can feel that lots of happiness-flowers blossom in my missing-him-heart...thanks a lot, Miss (D)(r)(e)(a)(m) as your presence has made the whole day to be coloured with happiness and smile :)

ღ::4-beloved siblings::ღ

Dear siblings, just want to let all of you know that:
I L.O.V.E ALL OF YOU SO MUCH!

Yes, it's undeniable that
we fight a lot, we quarrel over tiny matter;
but, REMEMBER this,
we are always a F.A.M.I.L.Y,
who needs each other :)

Firstly, to my dear future-lawyer-brother,
you know what, most of the time,
I treat you like you are
not big enough to take a good care of yourself,
as for me, forever and always
you are my lil brother
(can't believe my eyes to see you are much taller than me now)..
But, believe me my dear brother,
I do have my utmost faith for you
that one day, you'll make us so proud of you
(it's not that we are not proud of you, just i believe, you'll make us prouder than before!)...
So, go for it!
& one more thing,
I Love You so much!

Next, is my tough-future-pilot brother...
One thing that impressed me is
your independence attitude in you - yes,
you are too independent that few years ago,
back in school,
I couldn't recognize my own brother from far..
(and forever, I can't forgive myself for that)
dear brother, I really hope that you'll always be
blessed by Allah and be strong
in order to go through complicated, scandalous things
which trying their very hard
to block your path..
Study hard!
You need to improve yourself...& make us proud!
L.O.V.E YOU so much! :)
p/s: don't draw any more scar on your skin while you are playing rugby, please~

ohoho...ikan bakar!(his irritating trademark)
hehe this is my only brother
who can easily irritate me..
hehe his facial expression
may give me high blood pressure!
but, when it comes to
gymnastic (has flexible body-quoted from a doctor),
'loyar buruk' and traditional dance
as well as playing with the small ones,
yeah, you can count on him - a lot!
whatever it is bro,
S.T.U.D.Y - most important thing..
if you want to play squash or football,
yes, no worries, you may, but, study must come first!
WARNING:- don't make a surprise
for us to see your posted-result..(it's scary!)
+ take a good care of yourself!

my one and only sister,
okay, this year is your UPSR,
although I know you always score flying-colours-result,
please be extra careful..
and don't ever dare to do careless mistakes..
one more thing,
thanks for being such
a helpful, caring and understanding sister..
even though you are only twelve,
but, you're matured enough
to understand everything about
me-your complicated-fussy sister :)
love you so much!
however, dear sister, don't always act like
you don't care about others as sometimes,
friends may help you a lot - i mean,
TRUE FRIENDS may help you a lot :)
GOOD LUCK & Do your very best!!

my dear lil brother,
take a good care of your health please..
don't play the bicycle under the hot blazing noon sun,
oh no! you may get fever, just like these past 3 days..
plus, i don't want to experience that scary experience again
while I was accompanying you alone..
one more thing, maintain your 5A's result,
so that, I may sacrifice my other 50 note for you..huhu
okay, love you!

Oh, baby! hehe
(even though he has a lil brother after him, we still call him - baby!)
May your dream to have your own mini bike will come true..
don't worry dear,
if you are chosen for this becoming October competition,
I bet, ayah will buy one for you..
& you can save your saving!
but, please, take care,
and don't repeat the history of crashing the divider again!
p/s: love to see your spirit to learn new things and your fast understanding about everything around you - especially Math and Science~
love you, baby!

okay, now, move on to my 'banyak menjawab' lil bro (wearing songkok),
1) pay your full attention to your STUDY 2) playing football with your friends is great, but, if that is your first rank in your list, I'll smack you down!! *extreme~
you know what,
it is not that you are NOT clever,
but, you're L-A-Z-Y!
so, whatever it is, please,
overcome the laziness in you so that
you'll excel in whatever you do!
p/s: love to see you in the television when you're dancing 'PELANDUK'
- can see your BURNING SPIRIT! hehehe
GOOD JOB!
love ya!

last but not least, Wan ku sayang!
hehe he's so brutal..huhu
he is not scared of others
and don't be surprise if out from no where,
a punch hit your face!
hehe I've experienced it &...it's "N-I-C-E"!
he also love small kids -
yeah, he too is a small kid, but, yeah,
he loves babies so much!
& everyone in the house will miss him
when we are far away from him!
love you!
(my sweetheart can tackle his heart so much that he'll include my sweetheart in his daily dialogue & will never excluded him to be one of his 'gang')

ღ::3-m@k+@y@h::ღ

kehadapan ayahanda dan bonda,

Terik sang mentari menerpa kewajahku,mengingatkanku akan kedua orang tuaku, terkesima aku atas kasih dan sayang mereka,membikin hatiku rindu selalu...

ketahuilah wahai ayahanda dan bonda,kalianlah permata hatiku, permata berharga yang tidakkan bisa dibandingkan dengan jutaan harta di seluruh semesta, begitulah kasihku terhadapmu...sedalam lautan yang tiada dasarnya, seluas terbentang langit membiru..

ayahanda,bonda, maafkan setiap kekhilafanku, seandainya selamaku menjadi darah dagingmu, tutur bahasaku telah mencalari kalbumu, seandainya selama ini, tingkahku mengundang amarahmu, ribuan maaf kupinta daripadamu...

takkan mungkin dapat untukku membayar penat jerihmu, untuk mencari sesuap nasi untuk anakmu ini, mendidik dan membesarkanku dengan sabar, sehingga aku berupaya untuk berjuang mencari keredhaanNya..terima kasih ayahanda,bonda, jasamu akan kukenang, hingga ke akhir hayatku...

kupohon kepadaMU wahai Yang Maha Kuasa, setiap gangguan yang kedua-dua orang tuaku rasakan, setiap kesusahan yang mereka deritakan keranaku, setiap hilangnya sesuatu hak mereka akibat perbuatanku, maka, jadikanlah itu semua penyebab susutnya dosa-dosa mereka dan bertambahlah kebaikan mereka dengan perkenanMu ya Allah...sesungguhnya, mereka adalah tunjang untukku melangkah dalam meniti kehidupan ini...

P/S: una syg mak & ayah, terima kasih untuk segalanya :)

ღ::2-sticky notes&Y.O.U::ღ

Dear A.N.O.N.Y.M.O.U.S,

Those days, two or three times a week, during prep hour, there would be a sticky note pasted on my table...and there are something written on it...What did I do? First, I read it, and then,kept it under my table..hehe I guess, when a piece of test pad paper is pasted, that's mean you have no more sticky notes with you, am I right? ^_^
Thanks for the wishes, though, till now, I'm not so sure who you are(but to see your cute-cat-smiling-face, I think, I know who you are), I bet you realized that your 's.e.c.r.e.t.a.d.m.i.r.e.r.' signature wouldn't help much as I couldn't recognize you...It's okay,at least, your wishes had drawn a smile on my face & triggered me to study and do well in my examination...(of course, cause you are one of the top scorers in our school & I also wanted to prove that I am among the very best)
I think, that's all, this letter is to thank you for wishing me good luck, especially when examination was around the corner..Once again, thank you, really appreciate it :)

ღ::1-Dear R.A.I.N.B.O.W::ღ

Dear R.A.I.N.B.O.W,

You know what, these few days, I've been thinking of you, missing the time we spent together there, yes, there, back in our secondary school, SHAH PEKAN...You have always been such a wonderful protective and supportive person to me... You have been with me and been there for me ever since I met you..

Dear R.A.I.N.B.O.W,

You know why I'm calling you - R.A.I.N.B.O.W? It is only for one reason that a R.A.I.N.B.O.W have different colours which for me, is the most beautiful and pious scene to be viewed in any part of this world....& it is just like YOU - a true friend who always rejuvenate me with your sincere friendship..yes, dear..I don't know, but truthfully, I'm very happy to have you as my best friend as I believe that,you never bad-mouth me..If there is anything that bothers you, makes you feel uneasy with me, or if there is something that you think I shouldn't do, you'll say it, in front of me...but dear, however, you still know how to take a good care of my feeling...

Dear R.A.I.N.B.O.W,

I'm not so sure how am I going to say this, but, I don't know, your friendship sings in my heart - always...I could feel it!Your sincerity accompanies me when I really need a shoulder to cry to..Your HILARIOUS laugh chimes my laugh-smile-happiness-bud in me..&YOU, yourself is an important figure in my life who I will forever called as: My Best Friend...Thanks for always being there when I need you. You are always the first person I turn to. Thanks for lending a supportive ear. And for just being there. I want you to know how much your friendship means to me and how appreciative I will always be.

Right now, while I'm writing this, while I'm thinking of you, yeah!!
I MISS YOU, DARLING!! (◕‿◕✿)
Really hope to see you!

I think, that's all for now..take care, dear...

:::Special Dedication to: Nur Syuhadah bt Ernan:::